Current feelings

Angry, and fed up. Really fucking tired of people hiding important information from me. Angry that all my stuff is spread across 3 different houses, and I can't find fucking anything. Angry that I can't consolidate my stuff into my current living space because someone else's oppressive amount of shit is taking up all the space, and giving me nightmares of shit avalanches. Angry at myself for making poor decisions that are detrimental to my mental health. Angry that I didn't make my low benchmark goals. Angry that even though I'm being kept in the dark, there seems to be some major shut going down. And I have to deal with it alone. So done today. 

Hello, Travelers

“Find out what you're afraid of and go live there.” 
― Chuck Palahniuk

My future just became very uncertain.

It was all scripted out - my future husband and I were going to spend our days creating a life for ourselves in Delaware, building a business and raising a child, growing old together. We were a few short months from starting that path.

That relationship has ended. We are still close, but no longer so intertwined. And my future is an exciting, terrifying blank page. I need to figure out who I am, and learn how to be alone again. I need to reconnect with people I lost along the way. I need to overcome the finacial and psychological hurdles that threaten to keep me in stasis. I hope you join me for the journey.